SURPRISE!

Today was a good day! :) Those days are my favorite, the days where you have a plan but dont expect much from it. But then BAM the goodness of each experience surprises you and you're smiling when you didn't think you had a smile in you, you're laughing when you thought you had lost your joy, and your loving even in the midst of the hurt and the healing process.

I can't wait for tomorrow!

relationships

This song says it all.




I have nothing more to say.

he told me there would be a scar......

It seems the closer I get to God the harder life gets.

Healing has begun, deep healing, but it has come at a cost.

At church today I almost missed my opportunity for a prayer that could make a difference.  I didn't respond at the appointed response time and I thought I missed my chance. Thankfully, the preaching couple were still takin prayers even after the crew was tearing down. I stepped up to the plate and they prayed. They spoke healing over me. They spoke great stuff, heavy stuff. They spoke freedom, and life......and then it came......he said after all is said and done after the healing.....that there would be a scar. There would be a scar in place of the deep crack that the Lord has brought healing too.

I don't know how I feel about that, but I can't stop the process now.

Never Shout Never

If there were a white boy version of me i would be the lead singer of Never Shout Never

A change is gonna come

Nothing is what it used to be, nothing looks like I thought it would or should.

Everything is a mess, I'm unorganized, doubting myself, eating crap and not gaining a pound (YES!)

This is my life. If I had my own bratty way I would still eat crap, have no responsibilities, no accountability, all I would do is read, write, play my piano and sleep.

Instead I live and I screw things up along the way.

But a day of change is coming. Someday I will get it right, not perfect.....right. And those things that hold me back won't anymore.

Life is a process. As much as I hate the process,

here I go,

taking it one day at a time.